Wait. What?

I leave for CA in three weeks. Three. I was playing with Sadie after her bath tonight and just started crying. I tried to just keep it inside, but tears were welling up in my eyes and spilling down my cheeks and Sadie said "why are you sad?". How do I answer that? I want her to have a positive association with me going to TT and I don't want her to know how anxious I am about leaving her, so I just said "I'm not sad, I'm happy". Ultimately, it's the truth. I am so happy that I am getting closer to my goal. Some days I just swell with gratitude as I visualize my life as a Bikram Yoga instructor and studio owner. It's so close and such a clear vision in my mind's eye and when I get a glimpse of my new life I am humbled. Ultimately, I am doing this to arrange my life around her, to be more present for her, to model a successful and fulfilled woman for her and to make health and wellness a part of her life forever.

That doesn't mean I won't be an absolute mess without her for 5 weeks.

I have been getting such great advice from teachers about TT. Here are a few choice nuggets:

"Enjoy Yourself" (novel concept)
"The whole program is by design. It is designed to make you a little crazy. Go with it."
"Get everything you can from Bikram. You aren't there to make friends, you are there to get your certificate and to learn everything you can from him."
"Don't try to impress the instructors with your practice, just do what you can to survive in the room"
"You will never be in a situation like training ever again. Immerse yourself in it."