Time is FLYING

It's almost April. April is when I leave for Palm Desert. WTF? I am officially freaking out here. I am overwhelmed and excited and terrified and annoyed all wrapped up into one. I'm am swinging from "I shouldn't do this" to "I can't wait to do this". Here are a few of the thoughts that go through my mind at any given moment:

How is someone like me who likes their alone time going to deal with 300+ people all the time?

How is someone like me who loves her sleep going to deal with sleep deprivation (again- I'm a mom, so trust me I KNOW sleep deprivation and how I get when I'm in the throes of it)?

How is someone like me who lives for her time with her daughter going to leave her for 5 weeks?

How is someone like me who only gets to practice four times a week going to endure 11 classes a week???

From what I'm hearing from past trainees, I just will. I am working on Standing Bow Pulling Pose now and am still on pace to have up to Triangle by the time I arrive at TT. The first few days everyone is reciting Half Moon in front of Bikram, so I hope to be in the first group that presents so that I can start moving ahead with the rest of the postures. I will use the weekends to move ahead to other postures and the breaks during the day to brush up on the ones I've already learned.

My other worry is hydration. I've been getting headaches after really hot classes lately and this concerns me. I need to drink more water before class, bring more water to class and have EmergenC and Cononut waters for after class. Those puke buckets will be looming large at the back of that room and they serve as a reminder to really make sure I'm taking care of myself during this experience.

Ugh. I'm scared.